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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Going Bananas!

Before I start my banana story, take a look at my new banana bowl! Lynn painted it in Mexico and brought it back for us for taking care of Otto (as if that was a chore!). Isn't it nice?

Okay. Banana story. This is crazy. If you didn't think I was nuts already, you surely will now. And you should. Even I think I'm nuts. Bananas, actually.

You see ...

As you might recall, after a few bad days last week where I had a lot of bone pain in my arms, I mentioned that the only thing I had done differently at the time the pain suddenly subsided was get back to eating my daily banana after missing for a few days when I'd run out. It just seemed odd to me that the only days my arms ached so badly were the only days I hadn't had a banana. It's the only thing in my life that was different. I didn't give it any further thought because, of course, the whole idea is ludicrous! I thought about the potassium angle but my last blood work indicated that my potassium was in the normal range and besides, does potassium have anything to do with bone pain? Not that I'm aware of, though I haven't researched it. Yet.

Then ...

Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good despite the duvet wrangling I must have been doing all night. Kevin and I went out in the afternoon to run some errands. As the afternoon went on, I noticed that my arms were starting to ache and I was having more trouble with my lower limbs as well. By the time we got home from the grocery store at 6:00, it was all I could do to leverage myself out of the car and waddle to the house. And my arms really ached to use for anything at all. I said to Kevin, "I didn't have a banana today. That couldn't possibly be it, could it?" He said, "For God's sake, eat a banana!". So I did ... before the rest of the groceries were even unpacked. It couldn't hurt, right? And oddly enough, by the time I went to bed last night, my arms weren't nearly as sore and I was walking better, too. But that's crazy! I don't believe it's a placebo effect because I really can't believe that eating a banana could possibly make such a noticeable difference. So, call me bananas, but I'm sticking with my daily banana. Kevin said we'll have to stop and buy some as soon as we get to Louisville on Friday. I think he's right.

I had my banana today. So far, so good. Crazy. Bananas!

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Bellarmine Wins A Close One

Kevin and I followed the live stats for today's game. Luke had two shots on goal, one hitting the post, but no points today. Close, though. I'm glad they won, especially after last week's loss.

By the way, Bellarmine is pronounced "BELL-er-min. Previously I always pronounced the last syllable "mine" instead of "min".  I'm trying to remember to pronounce it correctly.
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The Saturday Hair Reveal

Heather's hair ... as pagoda. It's long enough to be trying to curl! It looks silly, but it's curls!

I must have fought some serious battles in my sleep last night. I woke up chilly in the night and all of the bedding but a sheet were on the floor! I gathered the blankets back up, got warm, slept and woke up later and they were on the floor again! For the past several months I typically make a stew of the bedding during the night but last night was the first time it all ended up on the floor. Twice. This is all especially peculiar for me because I'm one of those who could usually slide out of bed in the morning, fluff my pillow, run a hand over the covers and you would never know I'd even been there. I barely moved all night. And now ... what a difference!
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Friday, March 12, 2010

Because Ron Asked ...

Ron said he'd like to see Kevin as cupid. So here you go, Ron! Pretty funny!

Today was a decent day. I did okay at work this afternoon, though very tired at the end of the day. It was a special day at work because lovely Norma came by to visit us for coffee in the afternoon. What a treat that was!

After work we got together with the Ron and Patty for dinner at the new sushi place on Louise Avenue just off 8th. I'm not much for sushi so I'm not the best judge of the place but it seemed busy and people seemed to like their sushi. Is it wrong to drink Coronoa with your sushi?

I was pretty much toast for the night, but that's okay. To be expected. I'm looking forward to a bright, sunny, spring-like weekend and feeling good.
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Isn't Anybody Going To Stop Me?!






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More Fun With Luke




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Fun With Luke In Photofunia




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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Photofunia for Pretty Stuff, too

 



I had some fun today with photos of Hannah and Photofunia. I think I might print and frame a couple of these.

Today I made it to work in the morning! YEAH! I felt pretty good, too. Not too tired. But then I had my ultrasound (everything looks A-OK according to the doctor who performed the ultrasound) and after that I was so tired, I could hardly even keep my eyes open at the red light I was stopped at. SO tired. And the ultrasound experience made my stomach feel a little queasy, too. Lunch would help. It did settle my stomach but it sure didn't perk me up at all. I was so tired, I went to bed and slept for a solid couple of hours, which is about the extra time I would normally have slept during the night. I guess I need that sleep.

I made an appointment for a mammogram. I'd been putting it off. I don't relish the notion of having my mangled book squished. My research tells me that I should make sure I have my mammogram done with digital technology for two reasons, one being reduced levels of radiation and the second being that I have very dense breasts and digital imaging is better at detecting anomalies in dense breasts. When I phoned the imaging centre to make an appointment, I asked if the machine would be digital and, after a significant pause, I was told that they don't have any digital machines yet. I remember there being an announcement this summer that the breast cancer screening location had switched to digital so I knew it would be available to me elsewhere. Then the receptionist asked me if I would like to make my appointment for when they would have digital equipment, which turns out to be middle of April. Hell, yeah! They'll be completely digital at the Saskatoon Women's Imaging Centre my mid-April and I'll be one of the first in line for my mammogram. I just hope the radiologists have had good experience at reading digital images. I'll be asking, I assure you. I'm sure they'll think I'm a loonie for asking, but I've learned that it's a good idea to ask anyway.

I'm so pleased with these photofunia photos of Hannah. You should try some of these with your photos.
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

When The Going Gets Tough ...

... the tough mess around with Photofunia! Oh yeah. This is so empowering. This is me taking on all the nastiness of cancer. "Grrrrrrr ... Get off of my lawn".

If you need a smile, check out Photofunia!

Here I am cooking with philly.

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On The Rollercoaster ...

... at the cancer theme park. I WANT OFF!!

That's why I didn't post anything here yesterday. After a few days of feeling so good, it was just too depressing. Not just for me, but for you, too. Who needs that? Again.

After feeling great on Monday and saying so, it was only an hour or so later that I noticed my hands and arms starting to ache. By the time I went to bed, I couldn't get to sleep because the pain in my right forearm, in particular, was so bad. A relentless ache - like a clamp was being tightened around my arm. No matter how much repositioning I did, there was no let up. I took tylenol and I didn't notice it working either, though I eventually fell asleep and when I woke up in the night, that particular ache was milder.

I had hoped to go to work in the morning yesterday but had such a lousy night, I decided to stick with afternoons and so I slept in, hoping a good sleep would help. Or I tried to, anyway. Mom and Gary stopped by for a surprise visit sometime between 8:00 and 8:30 a.m. I didn't even know they were in town. It was nice to see them and nice to see Mom looking well, too. After they left, I contemplated going back to bed but I knew I was too chilled to get to sleep right away so I had a hot bath. And then I remembered that I had some appointments to set up and change, so I did that. I never did get back to bed. I thought I might as well get ready for work. But my arms and hands still ached and I felt crappy so I didn't go to work yesterday. I stayed home and was miserable. I couldn't make a fist with my left hand at all and could hardly hold a pen to write with my right hand either. The bones ... not so much my joints ... ached even doing the smallest thing like raising my water glass.

I can't say I understand it but I do accept that there's a lot of this process I don't understand and will probably never understand. It's so annoying. And puzzling.

I woke up during the night last night and did some thinking ... since I was awake anyway. Last night, by the time I went to bed, the ache was almost entirely gone from my hands and arms. Isn't that odd? I couldn't think of anything to account for that difference? And then I thought of something. Something that can't possibly be the difference but yet, it's the only thing I can think of that I did differently.

Last Friday I bought blueberries and bananas at the Co-op after I had my blood tests done. On Saturday and Sunday mornings, I had blueberries and bananas on my oatmeal for breakfast. I felt very good on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Monday I was out of both blueberries and bananas and just had plain cereal. Though I felt good all day, by late evening I was getting sorer by the minute, which led to yesterday's achy day. Last night Kevin picked up a few groceries, including bananas, on his way home from work. After dinner I had a banana. By late evening, my aches were subsiding substantially until today, I feel pretty good again except for feeling a big wrung out and still tired.

Could bananas and blueberries possibly have made that difference? It doesn't make any sense to me and yet it's the only thing I can think of that was different. I already had a banana for breakfast this morning. Just in case.

The photo above is one from Kevin's annual fishing trip to Ontario. Fishing is much on the brain since the sports and leisure show and the nearing of spring!
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Monday, March 8, 2010

Good Days. I Want More.

I feel good! I knew that I would!

Well, I didn't know that I would but I do and I'm glad of it! I felt good all day and not wasted in the afternoon or this evening. Not yet, anyway. That's a good feeling.

I had a dental appointment today. I had lunch with a group of neighbour friends, which was very nice ... people I often don't see much of until spring when we finally emerge like moles from our homes into the sunshine and warmth.

I worked this afternoon and that was good. As soon as I was home from work, Kevin and I were zipping through a drive-through and on our way to a lacrosse meeting. And now we're home. And I'm still feeling good!! YEAH!! I want to have many more days of feeling like I do today.

As you can see, I'm still enjoying my tulips. They dried so pretty, I can't bear to part with them. So now they're in a bowl just looking pretty.

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Sunday, March 7, 2010

Jeremy Hotz. Funny Guy.

Just in case you don't know who Jeremy Hotz is and why he's Kevin's favourite comedian. In this schtick, he talks about Saskatchewan a couple of times.


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12 Days Until Kentucky!

I can hardly believe it. Here are Luke and I last year racing at the Kentucky Derby. You can see that I'm winning. You can also see that I'm trying harder.

I'm so excited about going again! I can't even begin to tell you! We'll also be able to meet up with Karen and Barry from Victoria for a couple of days while we're there. We met them last year. Their son, Liam, is on the team, too. It's disappointing, though, that Patty and Ron won't be joining us as initially planned. I'm all good with Matty making decisions about his life ... until he interferes with a much happily anticipated holiday with his parents!

Last night was a lot of laughs at Jeremy Hotz! He's very funny. Drinks after rounded out the evening. Another good sleep and it's a good day today. I saw Kevin presenting for Sarcan on Telemiracle today. He drove down to Regina this morning and should be home soon. Meanwhile, I'm keeping an eye on curling while I'm doing laundry and some lapsed housework. I haven't felt very energetic this past week but I feel considerably better this weekend. I had another good sleep last night. Well, maybe not so good in that I was awake quite a bit, but by staying in bed much longer I eventually got enough sleep to account for a good sleep. I feel good and that's the main thing.

This spring like weather can only be mood enhancing! I'm trying hard not to think about that whole "lion and lamb" weather scenario.
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Saturday, March 6, 2010

Walking On Sunshine!

See all that grey fluff peeking out the sides of my hat?! That's exciting to me. It doesn't make me feel quite so bald in a hat. It makes a hat a more viable alternative to a wig.

Last night Kevin and I met up with Rex, Erin and Gavin for a traditional Friday night dinner at Norm's (Nutana Cafe). I had planned on spending the evening at home but since I was feeling quite good, I spontaneously decided to join Rex and Erin and go to the Sports and Leisure show. Just for the heck of it. I have no particular interest in boats and such but it was just nice to get out and about for a while. I saw Ron and Devy there, which was a very nice surprise! Kevin was there, too, but I didn't see him. He had a date to go with some fishing buddies and they were looking at some specific things that would have bored me to death ... at least for as long as they probably spent. I was home long before they had even finished looking.

And then I slept. And slept. And slept. About 11 hours. And man, did I need it! I feel so much better for having slept so long. I was awake a little bit during that time but not much. Not as much as usual. It's great to feel so good and such a beautiful, sunny, warm spring-like day. Unbelievable weather! Kevin and I ran a few errands today. We saw the lottery show home, which is beautiful. I think. I mostly loved it. We stopped at Don and Syl's to lend some thoughts on paint colours for their basement walls. We stopped at the mall and a drug store and here we are home again.

Soon we'll join Dwayne and Shelley for dinner and then we'll see Jeremy Hotz (Kevin's favourite comedian - I got him tickets for his birthday) at the Auditorium. A nice evening planned.

On the side effects front:
  • No more blood. Yeah!
  • Armpit not as puffy ... just a bit ... and certainly not as sore. I notice I've had to adjust my watch band a notch bigger, though. **frown**.
  • My right shoulder where I have that "impingement syndrome" ... not so good. I'm trying to be very careful with it but all it takes is a little movement that I don't expect to hurt and then pain is very acute. I've been letting my arm hang loosely from time to time as the physical therapist instructed but I only remembered last night that I'm also supposed to ice it regularly. I wish I'd remembered that earlier. I'm sure it will make a difference now that I've remembered to do that. I bought ice packs for both home and work today.
  • My legs are moving so much better than they have been since the end of October. That's so exciting!! It's easier to dress myself ... easier to put on knickers and socks and probably a lot easier to get tights or hose on! I can get in and out of the tub easier. My knees and hips hardly hurt at all. I can walk better. I can go from sitting to standing so much easier. Stairs are easier. Getting in an out of anything other than slip-on shoes is easier. Happy Happy Joy Joy!
  • The numbness in my feet is starting to subside a little. My toes especially are still numb but not as numb. It's like dental freezing that is VERY slowly and gradually coming out. Things are more tingly where they used to be completely numb. That's a promising sign, I think.
  • I feel just a little slimmer ... like I can stand straighter and taller ... like I might not have to live my life in a moo-moo. I can get into some clothes that I couldn't wear for a while and I bought some new clothes, too. It does wonders for my sense of well-being to feel better about my appearance.
  • Hair would do me so much good. WILL do me so much good. Will. Will.

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Sunny Saturday Hair Display

I should have combed it. I fluffed it to better indicate the amount that's there but I see some bare spots showing. Quite a bit of grey. Not much more hair than last week, I don't think. In fact, I haven't seen much difference in quite a while. Grow, dammit! Grow!
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Friday, March 5, 2010

Had I But Known ...

... I might have bought ones of these Seuss Land wigs while we were in Orlando 8 years ago! I've since looked for one of these but no luck.

Well. No more blood since yesterday morning, I'm happy to report. I didn't drink any fluids all day yesterday because I was afraid to go to the bathroom. Eventually I got too thirsty (and my wiser head prevailed) and I drank ... peed ... and was relieved in more than one way! Today I heard from the oncological nurse and got started on what I need to do just to make sure we've taken the precautionary measures. I saw my family doctor. I have appointments lined up, one for an ultra sound and one with a "groinacologist" (haha - that's what Nora calls them) for a biopsy. I had blood work done today ... two needles later. I have teeny tiny, rolly veins. Now some waiting. There's very good reason to believe this will turn out to be nothing but I'm glad we're making sure of that.

I'm also happy to say that I'm finally seeing steady improvement in my joints, tendons and muscles! Hallelujah for that!! I can go from sitting to walking much easier and quicker than I used to be able to do. There's much less time spent doing the "Frankenstein walk". YEAH!! Maybe the Arimidex is finally clearing out.

There are also some changes in the bone/muscle aches. Where I notice it most is in my arms. Previously my arms mostly ached at the joints - shoulder, elbow, wrist and fingers. Now my joints are less bothersome but the aching is mostly in the long bones or muscles of my arms. In particular, the area between my elbow and wrist aches like a stiff muscle when I use that arm. I don't notice it if my arms are still, but if I exert any strength, I feel aching in the length of them. I wonder if this isn't from the Tamoxifen, which can cause muscle and bone aches, just not as badly or as frequently as with Arimidex. Maybe my being very sensitive to Arimidex that way means I will also experience that side effect with the Tamoxifen.

I find I'm so tired and dragged down lately. I suspect the Tamoxifen is largely to blame. At first I thought it was just because of feeling more drained than anticipated from returning to work, but now I wonder if it isn't the Tamoxifen since I can feel just as whipped on a Sunday. I've lost that feeling of sunshine and light in my brain. I miss that feeling. It was so temporary. Tamoxifen can cause "brain fog" and depression, so I really do wonder. These drugs ... Tamoxifen and Arimidex ... are very powerful pharmaceuticals ... chemicals ... and while they have good records for doing what they're supposed to do, I'm not convinced they're the only way to go and, in fact, maybe there are better ways for people who react badly to those drugs. I'm not very happy about what they're doing to my insides ... my mind ... my bones ... my organs. More and more, I'm considering going off Tamoxifen and turning to natural aromatase inhibitors. My naturopathic doctor told me in passing this week that she had found something that might be the ticket but we haven't had a chance to discuss it yet. All of my research makes me feel more confident about the possibility of going off Tamoxifen and getting some quality of life back. As scary as it is to go off the cancer centre's protocol, I am thinking about it. Today. Who knows how I'll feel tomorrow. It's very scary. I'm trying to give myself the best possible chance of living for a lot more years but with quality of life and not just quantity. There are no promises. Like I said ... SCARY!

And now for a little stream of consciousness thinking ... some of my darker thoughts. I don't think I'm being paranoid but it is a matter of being aware and then using one's own best possible judgment.

While I'm grateful for the medicine I've had access to that has been killing cancer cells (I hope), I don't entirely trust the powers behind it. I don't trust it because I don't trust pharmaceutical companies. I don't believe there are altruistic pharmaceutical companies. They're in it for the money. It's in their best interest to have all women who fight breast cancer taking their drugs for 5 or more years. They're expensive drugs. Why aren't they forthcoming about some of the serious side effects that have been proven, such as the joint problems so many women experience on Arimidex and which isn't even mentioned in the literature that accompanies the drug? I thought that legally they had to warn of serious side effects.

What if (just as an example - I'm not saying this even might be the case) we learned that taking optimal amounts of Vitamin D could prevent breast cancer from returning? What would happen to those big pharmaceutical companies? They can't patent something natural like Vitamin D. What if we learned that taking optimal amounts of Vitamin D could cure cancer (a stretch I know ... but just imagine)? All those chemo drugs ... suddenly, for the most part, unnecessary? Can you imagine how wonderful that would be for humanity but how lousy it would be for big pharmaceutical companies? While we wish for a cure for cancer, pharmaceutical companies probably don't ... unless they discover it and can make tons of money with it. They wouldn't be happy to find out that cancer can be eradicated by something simple ... something they can't patent. Do I sound paranoid? Hmmmm ... I don't think so. I've seen close-up how greed and corruption works. It's shocking and you don't want to believe it. But if it exists at levels that I've had the misfortune of seeing then you can bet that as the stakes get higher, the more likely it is. Pharmaceutical companies are huge. I believe corruption is rampant and that sometimes they suck otherwise well-intentioned scientists and doctors into their evil vortex. I believe that. Evil.

Just my musings ... when I should be simply enjoying the beautiful day. I'll start doing that now. Right now.

Have a good weekend, everyone!

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Thursday, March 4, 2010

Waiting ...

... for the cedar waxwings. There are so many berries in our mountain ash trees. Usually the cedar waxwings swoop through en masse and clear the berries away. Last year they didn't. I hope they do this year, otherwise those berries end up all over our sidewalks and deck. Plus, it's a spectacular sight to see the cedar waxwings in action. The downside of the cedar waxwings coming through is that on their way out of the yard, they dump big (no ... GINORMOUS), lumpy, orange splotches on the cars and unless removed immediately, they can be mighty hard to remove. If you want to look for a positive in that, you have to imagine the snickering I did last time it happened, which was just after Kevin had so diligently washed his white car and had only just been home moments before it got orange-bombed! My car, parked right by his, didn't get a single orange dollop! It was pretty funny ... or at least I thought so. Kevin? Not so much.

Well. Yesterday. It got off to a good start. I felt good. I tracked Luke's lacrosse game. I went to work. That was good. I started to feel VERY tired around 4:00 but ... oh well. I had an appointment at 5:00 for a BIA (Bioelectric Impedance Analysis), which assessed my body composition and will help my naturopathic doctor and me map out a plan for improving my overall health and for measuring progress as we go. It only takes a few moments to complete the test ... as easy as stepping on the bathroom scale ... and bingo! There's a print-out of the results. My naturopathic doctor will go over them with me when we next meet.

When I got home, I was thoroughly and deeply exhausted. I was a lump for the rest of the evening and probably should have gone to sleep but was afraid sleeping so early would cause me trouble sleeping at night. It was just a useless night. I was too tired to move ... too tired to quilt ... too tired to blog. I did sleep a little better than usual last night, though. That's the upside of being exhausted during the day, I guess.

I did my best yesterday to avoid using my left arm any more than necessary. It's hard. Just try it. Even taking lids off jars, grinding pepper, adjusting blankets ... all those things cause little painful twinges under my arm. Not bad pain, mind you. Minor pain but I'm shooting for NO pain at all. Of course, in avoiding use of my left arm, I've increased use of my right arm and between that and a very painful, reactive attempt to catch a glass of water before it tipped over, my right shoulder is now VERY sore. It's okay if I keep it still or move it in a limited range ... no pain at all ... but even the slightest "twisting" motion with it causes a lot of pain. Just try getting dressed without twisting your arm or bending it back even slightly. Not easy. In fact, I haven't found a way yet and so I keep reinjuring my shoulder again and again, which leads to more inflammation and more sensitivity. I'm doing as the physical therapist recommended last fall and letting my arm hang loosely every now and then, which really does feel better, but I also need to stop reinjuring it. If only I could get dressed and undressed without moving my arm. That would make the biggest difference. Not wearing a coat would help. Soon. Soon.

So, just in case I haven't complained enough, there's more. If you can believe it! I tell you, it's positively demoralizing.

So ... this morning ... I wake up. I slept well. I still don't feel very "bouncy", though. I go to the bathroom. And great. There's blood. Not much. Just a bit of spotting. Not pink. Not dark red. That bright, orangy-red. I'm not supposed to be having any of that anymore. And this is where I gave a little prayer of thanks to my friend who warned me of a similar experience she had shortly after starting Tamoxifen. For her it turned out to be nothing she needed to immediately worry about but it is a sign of something that can be potentially nasty so I suppose I have to have it checked out.

I grabbed my sheet of information about Tamoxifen side effects and there, under "rare side effects" is:
"Increased risk of cancer of the endometrium (unusual vaginal bleeding may be a sign) - tell your doctor or nurse as soon as possible if you notice any unusual vaginal bleeding".
And here, from the U.S. National Cancer Institute:
Abnormal vaginal bleeding and lower abdominal (pelvic) pain are symptoms of cancers of the uterus. Women who are taking tamoxifen should talk with their doctor about having regular pelvic examinations and should be checked promptly if they have any abnormal vaginal bleeding or pelvic pain between scheduled exams.
Of some comfort, along with the "warning" my friend already provided, I found this information:
"Cancer of the womb occurs more commonly in women over the age of 50. In most cases, it presents early with vaginal bleeding. This is why it is most important to report to your doctor early any instance of unusual vaginal bleeding. What do I mean by unusual? Well, in women who are past the menopause, any instance of vaginal bleeding is unusual ... However, it is most important not to panic if you do develop vaginal bleeding while taking tamoxifen. The reason is, because tamoxifen acts like oestrogen on the lining of the womb, it is very common for it to cause a build-up of the normal lining of the womb, which occasionally is shed, a bit like a normal period. In more than 90 per cent of cases,vaginal bleeding in women taking tamoxifen is completely benign. However, the only way to be absolutely certain is to see your doctor, who will probably arrange for a uterine biopsy to be performed. Nowadays, this is a simple rooms procedure which does not require a general anaesthetic. There are occasions, though, when your doctor may wish to perform a dilatation and curette under general anaesthetic."
So ... Great. Just great. Cancer isn't for everyone, you know.

Am I winning yet?

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Lacrosse Day!

Live Stats for Luke's lacrosse game are working today. YEAH!!
  • 3:09 left in the first period. Assist by Luke Acton. YEAH!
  • End of 1st period. Bellarmine 3 - Loyola 2. Good start, boys! Keep it up!
  • End of 2nd period. Bellarmine 4 - Loyola 3. Way to go, team!
  • 12:04 left in the 3rd. Loyola scores to tie that game at 4 each.
  • 11:58 left int the 3rd. Loyola scores again and is up 5 to 4.
  • 10:31 left in the 3rd. Loyola now up 6 to 4.
  • 10:13 left in the 3rd. Loyola again. 7 to 4. Jack called a time-out. Time to regroup.
  • 8:44 left in the 3rd. GOAL FOR BELLARMINE! Chase Williams. Loyola 7 - Bellarmine 5.
  • Missed some action. 6:04 in the 4th. Loyola up 11-7.
  • 5:59 left in the 4th. Loyola up 12-7. Come on Bellarmine!
  • 2:18 left in the 4th. Loyola up 13-7.
  • 1:10 left in the 4th. Loyola up 14-7.
  • 25 seconds left in the 4th and Sean Doyle comes up with a goal for Bellarmine. 14-8 for Loyola.
  • Final score: Loyola 14. Bellarmine 8.
Too bad Bellarmine couldn't maintain their early momentum. Still ... here's the scoop. In the rankings, Loyola is ranked far ahead of Bellarmine so for Bellarmine to do as well as they did against Loyola ... good on them! And 1 more point for One-Point-Luke.
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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

The Not Quite Incredible Shrinking Woman

Speaking of weight, I'm surprised and cautiously optimistic about my recent slow but steady weight loss! I'm almost afraid to mention it in case I jinx it!

While I lost weight with some of my chemo drugs (FEC, to be specific), I gained weight on the other (taxotere). Overall, I gained 10 to 15 pounds during the course of my cancer treatments ... caused by a combination of chemo, steroids, inactivity. Fifteen pounds is considered the average weight gain one might expect during cancer treatments. Now that cancer treatments are over, I have the responsibility for losing what I gained. Oh joy! It's important for many reasons to maintain a healthy body weight. Women who maintain a healthy body weight are less likely to have their cancers recur. That's one of several incentives.

I have been struggling against weight gain for the past 7 years. It just slowly started creeping up on me after never having had to worry about it before. I've never had any particular problems with overeating or eating too much high-calorie junk. When I made concerted efforts to lose weight, I found it very hard. I could muster the will power and stick to it for a good, long time but even then, I could only lose a little weight and then I would plateau and it seemed like no matter what I did, I couldn't lose any more. This was one of the reasons I was seeing my doctor at the time I was diagnosed with breast cancer. He told me to "get more exercise", which was frustrating to hear and I knew that wasn't the complete answer.

Since having breast cancer and learning a little more about hormones, I've learned that weight gain and a drop in metabolism can be symptoms of estrogen dominance. That explains some of the problem if not all of the problem. I learned about estrogen dominance when I was researching my breast cancer, after getting the pathology report that indicated that my tumour was very high in estrogen and low in progesterone. In other words, I had an estrogen-fed tumour and had too much estrogen in my system, which is why I will now take estrogen blockers for the next 5 or more years. Read this short article about estrogen dominance and weight and how balancing your estrogen can not only help you manage your weight, it might also save your life (from breast cancer ); something I wish I had known a few years ago. If I had, I might not have developed breast cancer at all. I should also say that estrogen dominance isn't typically recognized by mainstream medicine and is more in the realm of the naturopathic doctors. I haven't met any mainstream doctors that give a hoot about balancing hormones, except for cutting my estrogen AFTER breast cancer, but from the personal experience of being a woman, I know hormones figure into almost everything. I do believe it's a fine balance. I believe that recognizing and treating estrogen dominance in the first place can prevent some breast cancers.

Since there's no turning back the clock to "prevention", here I am in treatment and doing what I have to do to live. Maybe someone out there will see themselves in my symptoms prior to breast cancer and perhaps prevent themselves from getting breast cancer. That would make me very happy.

Back to weighty things ... I was dismayed to learn that the drug I'm to take for the next 5 years (tamoxifen) can cause weight gain in much the same way that birth control pills can. It felt like just another kick in the boob. But so far that hasn't been the case for me. Not yet anyway. In fact, I've been slowly and steadily losing weight, which is making me SO happy! I can hardly believe it! I've lost at least 5 pounds in the past two or three weeks. And I'm not even trying! That's the surprising part! Previously I would have gained weight drinking water and eating celery! This is too good to be true! I haven't been cutting out breads ... or mayo ... or cheese ... or butter on my potatoes ... or chips and dip on special occasions (such as Olympic hockey games) ... What's going on?! How can this be?

I have no explanation. Maybe if I understood more about estrogen and my other hormones but from what I'm reading, even though estrogen dominance can cause weight gain, so can decreasing estrogen (as happens during menopause, which is where cancer treatments have put me). I find all the hormone information just too difficult to understand. It seems very complex.

Here's a possible theory for my new ability to lost weight. Vitamin D. Was I previously unable to lose weight because I was Vitamin D deficient? Read this article that links increased Vitamin D levels to weight loss. Could it be that just upping my Vitamin D is allowing my body to shed some weight? At last? Remember (I find this hard to keep in mind) ... Vitamin D3 is not actually a vitamin. It's a hormone. Then why do they call it "Vitamin D" instead of "Hormone D"? I don't get it! Well now I do, because I looked it up and found it here. It seems that it was in the early 70's that scientists discovered that Vitamin D is a hormone and not a vitamin:
"One of the reasons vitamin D was a puzzle to scientists for so many years was that it was initially misidentified as a true vitamin, that is an essential substance that our bodies cannot manufacture and which therefore, can only be obtained from our food. But, unlike essential dietary trace elements, such as vitamins A, B, and C, which humans must get directly from food, vitamin D can be produced in the body through a photosynthetic reaction when the skin is exposed to sunlight. The resulting substance is only a precursor, however, which must then undergo two transformations--first in the liver and then in the kidney--to become the biologically active substance the body uses. This active form of vitamin D is a hormone, chemically akin to familiar steroid hormones, such as the sex regulators testosterone and estrogen and the stress regulator cortisol."
Whatever the reason for my recent miracle weight loss, I don't understand it and I'm afraid to get too excited! It's too bizarre! I just hope it continues for a while longer! I would so love to feel like my smaller self again! If I figure it out, I'll let you know. If you have any ideas, please share.

Just think ... if I start adding more exercise to the mix, at this rate I would be slimmish again before next fall! That would be too much to hope for. I know it.
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I saw my doctor this morning about the swelling and pain under my arm. Today it wasn't so painful, though. Only minor discomfort when I got up this morning, which made me happy. Of course the entire area including my whole left breast is tender when poked and prodded, which I avoid doing so don't even know it's that tender for the most part. My doctor doesn't seem too worried about the swelling. He didn't go so far as to call it lymphedema but it is some fluid collection.

He thinks it's happening because I've been more active. I'm using that arm more and, in fact, I do use it more because of the pain in my right shoulder. Plus, I'm driving more now and with all the extra stops I've had to make at places like the parking office it just means a lot more opening and pulling closed the car door, which is a little heavier for my car being a two-door. Things like that and some of the stretching I've been doing to reach things in and out of kitchen cupboards ... carrying groceries ... opening heavy doors (not at home - at businesses) ... carrying laundry ... lifting this and that ... even things like tugging on the refrigerator door that otherwise don't seem like a big deal all add up during the course of a day and is a little too much activity and strain for my arm. Not only do I use my left arm more because of the pain in my right shoulder, I'm also "left-armed" so it's my inclination to use it for opening doors, for instance. I just have to try not to use it so much. It can't be helped for driving though. I just have to limit my stops so I'm not getting in and out any more than necessary.

I stayed home today to further rest my arm. By the time I was driving home from the Doctor's office, each little bump in the road made my armpit hurt. I hope it's even better tomorrow for having rested it. I'll also have to be more careful not to lift, stretch, pull, push any more than necessary.

I did a little more reading about lympedema (at breastcancer.org). I read most of this earlier but had forgotten a lot of it. It was good to re-read it. It specifically says, "Don't carry heavy objects with your at-risk arm, especially with the arm hanging downward." Noted. Again. The other thing I have to remember is that even though I didn't have all my nodes removed and didn't have a mastectomy, I still have some risk of lympedema both from the surgery and even more so from the radiation treatments. It's important to remember the following (also found at breastcancer.org) ...
Lymphedema can happen just weeks after surgery, or years after initial cancer treatment. It can be brought on by trauma or infection, or it can develop without any obvious cause.
And Berny, this is for you since we were just discussing the safety of hot tubbing and the conflicting information we'd been given:
Because it widens blood vessels, heat allows more fluid to get into an area at risk for swelling. Very hot weather and sitting in hot tubs can bring on lymphedema.
And this is why you want to do all you can to avoid getting lymphedema in the first place:
If you are free of lymphedema, it means that your body has learned how to re-route any excess buildup of lymphatic fluid. Unfortunately, once you've developed the condition, the more lymphedema you have and the longer you have it, the harder it is to reduce the swelling in your arm.
I DO NOT want lymphedema. Just another good reason to lose weight, too, by the way, since people with excess weight are more likely to get lymphedema.

By the way, I didn't hear back from the Champion Centre. I'm glad I got in to see my family doctor right away.

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