I had a couple of down days. To be expected. As long as they don't last, that's the main thing. Thanks for riding the wave with me. On an added note, the drugs I'm taking can, themselves, cause "depression", so all considered, I'm doing great.
I didn't just wake up to a sunnier disposition. Things started improving last night. First with Dave and Laurel's visit. Then, Kevin came home from the lacrosse field and had a nice chat with me and gave me some encouragement and told me I still look beautiful. Then Luke came home and when he asked how I was doing, I couldn't help a few tears so he gave me his "coaching talk" and reminded me that I'm already half way through and it's only 2 more months and then the side-effects will start going away and that I look good and he hadn't even noticed anything different about me. His tone of voice was all ... you can do this ... you're almost there. I think he'll make a very good coach some day. Apparently he already is.
And then I talked to Hannah. She's just back to Vancouver after a month in New York. We talked ... and talked ... and talked. I told her about my sad side effects and we both had a big laugh over what she suggested as my new totem name ... Moon-Face-Buffalo-Hump. It has a rhythm similar to Head-Smashed-In-Buffalo-Jump. I'll use that one another day, I'm sure. She told me so much about her adventures in New York and Chicago! It was like watching a movie. A great movie. What's great about having Hannah tell about her adventures is that she's so analytical and introspective and she looks at everything from various emotional and intellectual perspectives and then she includes those impressions and feelings in the telling so you really feel like you're a part of the experience. And her experiences were out of this world! Even she said it's still like a dream ... all the things that happened to her there. Now I can't wait to see her photos! Kevin can hardly contain himself, he's so fiercely jealous of her adventures! Envious in a good way, I mean. He just wants to hang with her and be a part of that. Me, too! Who wouldn't?!
I finished talking to Hannah just after 1:00 a.m. and I was still glassy-eyed with excitement and joy when I crawled into bed ... tired but happy. And here I am this morning. Pain-free! And, I note, no boa constrictor pains this time either. I'm sure they won't happen now that I'm done with the tissue-tenders. Things should be getting better from here on in. Yesterday should have been when my blood cell counts dropped to their lowest and they should start climbing now. If all's well today, I'll be at Luke's field lacrosse game tonight at 7:00.
So there. Feeling good. Feeling positive. Feeling happy.
And isn't this a gorgeous dahlia photo??!! Amazing colour! It's from my friend, Elaine, and it's in her garden!